Been a while

Ok, I'm not supposed to be on here but I'm trying so hard to stay awake. I don't know what's what anymore. I've been feeling lost. Naturally part of this is from the loss of my best friend. However I manage to live through that day by day. I saw him driving the other day. I was so proud...I didn't burst into tears.

I have come to the sad realization that I don't know that I want to continue an old friendship as it causes me pain everyday. He doesn't give a damn about our friendship anymore so why should I? Tell me really what is the point?

I have made some good girlfriends. I am greatly appreciative for them. They are mostly from my work but that's better then nothing. I try not to hang out with people with whom I work after the latest loss of a friend. I feel strongly it's the best way to get bent over and raped up the ass...

Work is otherwise good. However we've lost quite a few people. That really sucks because we're short handed. I moved to graveyards and that's been ok. I'm glad that I don't have to work in the day. Anyways life is really blah. I am so sorry that I have nothing really intresting. My head hurts, I never get anysleep, I'm going crazy. Anyone going to come along?