I wrote it for him

Laying in the deafening silence
I have sleepless dreams
He bade me not a good nights rest
I shall remain awake it seems

My soul would have him by my side
My words make that not so
I foul things up most everyday
I don't deserve him this I know

He brings me joy and I him pain
My luck has such run out
He may love me as he says
But my mind is filled with doubt

How can he love a beast like me?
When he is such a gentleman
Why does he not see the worst in me?
The sharpness of my pen

The words I say do pierce him so
He thinks himself inadequate
But it is I who've let him down
I've disapointed him inspite of it

The forgiveness of this charming soul
I dare not ask him for
I would have to grovel at his feet
and show it's him I adore

My life would happily be spent
In the service of this man
To show him of my love
And show how sorry I truly am

I plead with you oh night of horror
As bad as it may seem
Let me lay in deafening silence
And dream my sleepless dream