Faithless

It's so hard to have faith in anything anymore. Christmas is going to be bunk with out my mom. I hate this. I don't know if I even have feeling anymore. I feel numb. Not just because it's freezing outside but I feel numb inside too. Like there is a big empty hole or void.
Void :Noun 1. a. An empty space. b. A vacuum. 2. An open space or a break in continuity; a gap. 3. A feeling or state of emptiness, loneliness, or loss.

I feel that way. Number three the most I don't know how to feel. I'm sure that's bad and all but this sucks. I want to curl up into a hole and just rot. Hardly anything makes me feel better. I have the overwelming feeling of pain. People always want to say things to make you happy, but lots of the time it only makes it worse. Everything now is so confusing. I'm so lost. So confused. Someone take my hand and show me how to go and where I'm going. Bring light into this dark world. Save me from myself.

Dying is a very dull, dreary affair. And my advice to you is to have nothing whatever to do with it." -- W. Somerset Maugham

"Life is like a Ferrari, it goes too fast. But that's ok, because you can't afford it anyway." -- Jim Davis

Only those who are fit to live do not fear to die. And none are fit to die who have shrunk from the joy of life and the duty of life. Both life and death are parts of the same great adventure." -- Theodore Roosevelt

"Many people die with their music still in them. Why is this so? Too often it is because they are always getting ready to live. Before they know it, time runs out."
-- Oliver Wendell Holmes