Help me Understand

Would someone please help me understand why it is when you're so happy and it seems as if nothing could go wrong that somthing jumps out of hiding and bites you hard? I don't understand how a day can be going so well just to blow up in your face. All was well, but now it's not. There is no constant, no hope, no way that everything can ever be the way it should be. Why can't it be simple? Why can I never find the right words to say. Or why is it that the person who knows the right words can't say them to me. Why can't I have a friend who's always there? Why should I want one? Why should he want to be there for me? He shouldn't I don't deserve him or his forgiveness for my crulety. But I hope he'll give it to me anyways, oh I hope I hope I hope.

Boo will be here soon, she's there for me. She makes it right. I hope that she can fix this day. Oh please God let her fix it. I can't stand the hurt, the knots in my stomach...she will make it better, I know she will! Thanks heaven for Boo!